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Clever Mischief Chapter 19: Distractions
by Inell (inell)
at March 6th, 2006 (03:41 pm)

Clever Mischief, Chapter 19: Distractions
Date: Saturday, October 1, 2005
Location: Library, Hogwarts
Character: Hermione
Rating: Any Age

It had been a busy week. Hermione didn’t dwell on the fact that it actually had been rather slow, work wise, and instead focused on all her many projects she’d started to occupy her time. After all, any improvements to her library were work related and considered productive in terms of her job performance.

It was now Saturday afternoon and she was up to her elbows in dust. For the first time in quite awhile, she hadn’t gone to Hogsmeade for breakfast. It had become such a routine over the years that she still felt a bit odd not to have started her day by eating at the Three Broomsticks and sharing conversation with Rosmerta. She had missed a few Saturdays over the past school years, though, due to various reasons so it was silly to dwell on the change in routine. Sometimes change was good, after all.

This morning, she had woken early after another restless night with little sleep and much tossing and turning to shower and dress in comfortable track pants and a comfortable shirt suitable for her plans. She had skipped breakfast, again, and gone straight to work. That had become her pattern during the previous week, it seemed. She’d barely left her library at all, finding comfort in the familiarity of books and the escape in the projects that took her mind off things she needed to stop thinking about.

After she returned from Hogsmeade last Saturday, she’d been confused and felt guilty about the kiss she’d shared with Fred. She’d been able to push it from her thoughts during her dinner with Harry and Ron, which had been very enjoyable and ended with the most delicious cake ever. The thoughts had come back to the forefront of her mind as soon as she’d returned home, though, and she’d realized they weren’t likely to just be pushed into a little compartment in her mind.

It was her fault, of course, for returning Fred’s kiss when she’d just kissed George a few days before and wasn’t sure about anything. The kiss from Fred had just made things even more complicated. If it had been an awful kiss or she had felt like she did when she brushed a kiss against Harry’s cheek, it would have cleared things up. That would have been too easy, though. Instead, she’d felt a fluttering in her tummy and warmth spreading over her body and she’d wanted more.

Perhaps she had just been alone too long. It had been awhile since Viktor and that might be why she’d responded to both George and Fred’s kisses, as neither had been the same yet they’d caused a similar intense reaction. She shouldn’t have kissed either of them, not when her feelings were unclear and especially not when she knew a relationship was pretty much impossible with anyone, much less one of them.

She didn’t feel guilty about the actual kisses because such a reaction would take away from how she felt about each individual kiss. However, she did feel guilty for letting herself get into this situation and for possibly alienating two men she considered friends and enjoyed having in her life. They’d know she’d kissed them both and would probably think she was some cheap slag who made a habit out of kissing attractive men and probably wouldn’t care that it had been years since she’d even felt an inclination to kiss anyone much less two people in the span of weeks. She wouldn’t doubt that they’d either be disgusted with her actions or choose not to have her around for some other reason.

Hermione frowned as she scrubbed the empty shelf before her. It was amazing how organization and cleaning could distract her from those thoughts. She had woken Sunday after a restless night’s sleep with the idea to clean the entire library. Such a task could be accomplished in an afternoon with a couple dozen charms, but she decided to clean the shelves the Muggle way so she’d not risk damaging the books. She had ignored Kingsley’s quizzical look when he’d reminded her that she always cleaned magically, and Neville had just offered to help since he had a free Sunday and cleaning was as enjoyable as sitting in his room.

The library had been thoroughly cleaned prior to the start of school so there wasn’t much dust to wipe away, but it gave her something to focus on and that made it worthwhile. Spray, scrub, wipe, dry. Spray, scrub, wipe, dry. That had become her routine during the hours she wasn’t doing her normal duties. She went to bed in the middle of the night so exhausted and worn out that she slept a few hours before she woke from odd dreams she couldn’t remember but always made her feel somewhat miserable, and only remembered to eat because food would end up on her desk around lunch time and dinner time.

Once she was finished with the library, she might ask Minerva if the unused classrooms on the third and fourth floor needed a good thorough cleaning. Then she’d ask Kingsley if she could clean the dungeons, as that would take a bit longer since not even the House Elves liked going down there much unless required. Cleaning the entire castle would keep her busy for months, probably, and that would hopefully be enough time for the complicated thoughts in her mind to clear up and start making sense.

She refused to acknowledge that she’d let this situation happen, that she’d developed a crush on Fred and had kissed George and then kissed Fred, and was now hiding from it in the way she hid from anything too emotional that scared her. The idea of Fred and George ending their friendship with her because of her foolish decisions kept her hidden in the library. If they didn’t see her, they’d have time to forget all about the kisses. Of course, they might not even have discussed a kiss they might have considered casual and meaningless with each other, in which case it was her own confusion over things that was making her believe they’d hate her.

Regardless, things were too complicated in her mind and she needed a distraction. True, she was somewhat cranky from not sleeping well, sore from doing so much cleaning, and probably wasn’t very pleasant to be around, but she didn’t let that interfere with her job and none of the students suffered from her moodiness. Really, only those closest to her would even suspect she was acting weird as she tended to have a reputation for being focused and doing things the Muggle way even when magic was quicker.

Hermione finished one shelf and moved to the next. Once she finished this section, she might take a short break and eat the lunch that Dobby had put on her desk earlier. She needed a bit of energy as she hoped to finish the next three sections on this wall before bed. She couldn’t help thinking of restless nights during the war when she’d spent hours cleaning the kitchen at Godric’s Hollow in order to avoid nightmares or thinking about everything that could go wrong or that had happened since she’d left Hogwarts.

Cleaning and organizing always worked as a good distraction for her and had since she was a child, which was probably further evidence that she was definitely nowhere near normal. She didn’t mind that, though, because normal wasn’t anything she’d ever particularly wanted to be. Distractions were good, especially at the moment. For now, she didn’t plan to go back to Hogsmeade or see the twins until she could be around them without thinking about crushes or kissing. If that required cleaning the entire castle, so be it.

Comments

Posted by: Ankhet (ankhet)
Posted at: March 6th, 2006 09:55 pm (UTC)

oh poor Hermione. But at least cleaning is a productive distraction...Hopefully she'll figure out something soon, before she scrubs holes in the castle walls.

(I know I seem to be saying "poor ___" a lot lately)

Posted by: Inell (inell)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 12:43 am (UTC)
Clever Mischief: Inell & Rose Fic

Yes, cleaning is at least productive! We're glad you're enjoying it!

Posted by: Millie (millieweasley)
Posted at: March 6th, 2006 09:56 pm (UTC)

Poor Hermione! She needs a good hug from her favorite boys...

And I will be a good girl and not ask for new updates! I will be a good girl!

*jumps impatiently in my seat while clamping my hands over my mouth*

Posted by: Inell (inell)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 12:44 am (UTC)
Clever Mischief: Twins/Hermione

Hee! Patience! We're glad you're enjoying it, hon!

Posted by: Stephanie Kay... (forluck_yousaid)
Posted at: March 6th, 2006 09:58 pm (UTC)

awww poor Hermione.

All three of them are so unhappy :-( I can't wait to see how it all works out.

Posted by: Inell (inell)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 12:45 am (UTC)
Clever Mischief: Twins/Hermione

Thank you! We're glad you're enjoying it! And, yes, poor all of them!

Posted by: Katie (mermaidqueen)
Posted at: March 6th, 2006 09:59 pm (UTC)
Amelie

Oh yes, great update, can't wait to hear from the twins! *is still worried*

Posted by: Inell (inell)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 12:53 am (UTC)
Clever Mischief: Twins/Hermione

Thank you! We're glad you enjoyed it!

Posted by: sevedra wimbitt (sevedra)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 12:31 am (UTC)

excellent. this is a wonderful view inside Hermione's mind and heart. I am so worried about the twins relationship with each other right now too. I want them to talk about it, I want Hermione to just admit to them what's going on. Well, maybe she could admit it if she knew what was going on.

Posted by: Inell (inell)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 12:52 am (UTC)
Clever Mischief: Inell & Rose Fic

Thank you! We're so happy you're enjoying the story! I'm really pleased you liked the insight into Hermione's mind!

Posted by: Bambu (bambu345)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 12:39 am (UTC)
Quips Lost Brain Cell

I've been enjoying this thoroughly, and I think you've done a nice job of the twins' anger with one another as well as Hermione's denial/avoidance. They're such very real reactions.

I have a little query. In a couple of places you two have comments similar to this one: She shouldn’t have kissed either of them, not when her feelings were unclear and especially not when she knew a relationship was pretty much impossible with anyone, much less one of them. What I'd like to understand is why a relationship is impossible for her with anyone. What am I missing? I rarely feel quite this obtuse, and if you can explain it, I'd really appreciate it.

Posted by: Inell (inell)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 12:45 am (UTC)
Clever Mischief: Inell & Rose Fic

Why did I not know you were reading this? Did I know? *ponders* Hee! Anyway, I'm glad you enjoy my Hermione and doesn't Rose write the best twins ever? Gah! She kills me with ever new sentence she writes. As for your query, you've not missed anything. We're happy you're enjoying it!

Posted by: Bambu (bambu345)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 12:53 am (UTC)
Fantasy Faerie in Hiding

You know, my life has been unbelievably hectic recently, so it's possible that I haven't reviewed... although I think I have. ::shrugs::

I'm waiting for a call now before heading into a rehearsal so I had a chance to read this chapter. I figured that I'd missed something along the line with Hermione's backstory and I'm a bit relieved that I haven't.

I do like Rose's characterization of the twins, they're fully dimensional rather than being too cardboardish, and that takes some lovely talent.

Thanks for clarifying the situation about Hermione... er... or not. ::smiles at you::

Posted by: Inell (inell)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 12:56 am (UTC)
Clever Mischief: Twins/Hermione

You might have reviewed a part she wrote. *grin* I'm glad you're reading it! I fangirl Rose for her twins. I don't like the twins that are the exact same in fics so her ability to make them twins yet two different people just makes me squee. I'm lucky she agreed to write this with me! *grin*

Posted by: Bambu (bambu345)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 03:35 pm (UTC)
Writing Point of a Nib

You might have reviewed a part she wrote Ah. Maybe that's it.

I like to see the twins as separate and individual entities, even while being so close they finish one another's sentences and thoughts.

The only fanfic story I've ever collaborated on (in another fandom) was just really fun, and to our great surprise won several awards. I think you and Rose are traveling down that route, especially since you're not doing the oh-it's-been-years-let's-shag storyline. I look forward to more.

Posted by: Deb (tyskn)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 01:37 am (UTC)
want weasley

Hermione's reaction is right on the mark....distract to keep yourself from thinking of bad things. Leaves me curious as to how she'll react upon learning what this has done to the twins relationship with each other. *pictures her "tidying" up the bottom of the lake with the squid's help* It's good that she doesn't entirely feel guilty over the kisses. Her brain just needs time to sort it all out so that when the big "which one's it gonna be" question pops up she'll know her answer. :)

Excellent chapter dear ♥ ♥

Posted by: Inell (inell)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 10:48 pm (UTC)
Clever Mischief: Inell & Rose Fic

Thanks, sweetie! We're glad you enjoyed it!

Posted by: Rebecca Elizabeth (star_faerie)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 01:35 pm (UTC)

This chapter was quite amusing. I love the way cleaning was used to further procrastination. Poor, poor Hermione. I can't wait for more :)

Posted by: Inell (inell)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 10:49 pm (UTC)
Clever Mischief: Twins/Hermione

Thank you! We're happy you're enjoying the story!

Posted by: the_lone_jen (the_lone_jen)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 10:33 pm (UTC)

I know everyone's having a pity party for Hermione, but really, she got to kiss two good looking guys! I know there are self-esteem issues here, and her fretting is totally what I would expect, but I know that hermione would hate to be pitied, and we do her a disservice if we do so.
Instead, I'm gonna say, "She isn't considered the brightest witch of her age for nothing."

Posted by: Inell (inell)
Posted at: March 7th, 2006 10:50 pm (UTC)
Clever Mischief: Inell & Rose Fic

Hee! Yes, she did get to kiss two good looking guys, the lucky girl! We're glad you're enjoying it!

Posted by: thequeeneb (thequeeneb)
Posted at: March 9th, 2006 08:26 am (UTC)
^.^

i love this story i have actually been keeping track and reading it for quite sometime now i have just been battling LJ for a account that works properly *sigh* but now i can comment *CHEERS*

seriously wishes she was hermione right now...lol

Posted by: Inell (inell)
Posted at: March 12th, 2006 09:11 pm (UTC)
Re: ^.^
Clever Mischief: Inell & Rose Fic

Thank you! We're so glad you're enjoying the fic! *grin*

Posted by: witchiepooh (witchiepooh)
Posted at: March 10th, 2006 01:47 am (UTC)

OMG, poor Hermione! You know, I wish I was one of those people who clean when they're upset...instead I lay around and EAT :D

I've finally caught up with this and the last chapter...it's like the angsty interlude and I'm looking forward to the Hermione/Twins confrontation. Great job, as always.

Posted by: Inell (inell)
Posted at: March 12th, 2006 09:12 pm (UTC)
Clever Mischief: Inell & Rose Fic

Thank you! We're so pleased you're liking the fic! And, yes, I wish I cleaned when upset instead of crashing with junk food and TV!

Posted by: Dr Leezard (lizardspots)
Posted at: March 15th, 2006 07:01 pm (UTC)
Memoirs of a Geisha

Hehehe! Oh dear, poor Hermione! But hiding away from emotional confusion isn't going to work! I love how she's carefully trying to avoid thinking about it all. I also like that she's not guilty about the kisses themselves and is honest with herself to realise she has feelings for both men. 8D

*goes to next part*

Posted by: Inell (inell)
Posted at: March 23rd, 2006 04:13 am (UTC)
Clever Mischief: Inell & Rose Fic

Thanks, hon! I'm glad you enjoyed this part! *grin*

Posted by: alisanne (alisanne)
Posted at: June 9th, 2006 02:10 am (UTC)
Emma

Poor Hermione. *sigh* It's all so complicated...

Posted by: Inell (inell)
Posted at: June 9th, 2006 02:21 am (UTC)

♥ Yes, it is a bit complicated. *grin*

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